my wishes

wish i was normal
wish my thoughts was normal
wish i loved u more than now
wish i didn't cry when u were lookin' at me
wish u knew how am i
wish now i wasn't crying
wish i was not jealous
wish i was not in love with my fuckin' melancholia!
i just wanna shout!distroy!i don't know!i wanna leave this awful life which i hate!i can't.i'm soaked with my tears...!i don't know what happened to me.i don't want to be like this.but i AM right now!i'm tired of being sorry.i'm tired of annoying u...!i hate myself!